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Today got back my physics paper got like 30/40 good lar but still can do better and worst my history got like 10 and half /30 FAILED lah damn emo cried in school and at home then told my mom about this then she just said put more effort next time then today offended sherrill by calling her "this type of women" but my deffination was like she got study or else she would not done so well for history but i wanted to say that usually i got better than her and i got study quite hard then i was quite upset an dissapointed with MYSELF please sherrill forgive me k i really wish you could see my heart that i am sorry then today clara said that i talk bad about her then some one told her that that some one is unknown but it will be better if i did not know it will only hurt myself today spring accuse me of scolding he the fish word but i did not *crossing heart* but spring failed to believe me but still i will try to forget about it >now i need to try my best to forget the fact that i failed history and today told jessica about my history then was heard by sarah then she ask what happen cannot be bothered to repeat so did not say about it .A few days ago on the phone clara said she will pair up with me for the science mini project then today she go find spring say she go partner spring instead of me kinda hurt me .Feelin sad but what can i do it is her right to group with any one she want then today i ask her to when she wanna stay back for the project she say she partnering spring then i remind her that on the phone she said she will partner me that time she said she don know lar kinda hurt me .Since she could not keep her promise of grouping with me she ,she should not have even promise to partner me so i can go find other group but now it is all too late ,way too late sorry SHERRILL SORRY SORRY SORRY btw faithian good luck on practicing "NOBODY".(: I am depress but what can i do ,i agree i was wilful ,insensitive to people feeling ,dumb on the fact that that i hurt you ,stubborn last but not least my straight forward-ness that hurt you.Is jesus carrying me now??? I am losing faith and my faith is shaking .Save my wavering / shaky faith lord.

Today went to marine parade ran into my uncle with his family and went their son which is like 3-4 yrs old like to sit those toy car then the car move damn slow then my aunt say it look like a slow motion film yesterday went to watch UP damn touching i almost cried damn sad k it is about the old man and his wife who is dead which is sad .The old man went to set off on a journey to go a fountain that both him and his wife LOVE-ED but thru the journey e learned pretty much and it was quite sad and on the same day i bought katy perry new cd damn nice fell in love with the song Ur so gay damn funny the lyrics say you'r so sad you should go get a happy meal ahaha Ur so gay and you don even like boys.Mannequin sound so weird and so love-like style and damn happy finally CT4 over but tmr got shooting damn stress i wanna go national but i know i might not be able to make it so my faith is shaking.Help me i need a summer in this winter .I don want shoot tmr feel very weak today having a flu ; runny nose ): don know wat to do i wanna upload pictures but cannot sia blogger got problem

My faith is shaking ,gotta keep trying ,gotta keep my head held high , i can almost see the dream i am dreaming ,therre is a voice inside my head saying i will never reach it every move and step i am taking feel lost with no direction,i struggles i am facing and chances i am taking some time it might knock me down but i am not breaking i will be strong and keep pushing on.KEEP THE FAITH Some where i went wrong , i was once so strong,my life is like a song , i can't forget,and lat last all the picture have been burned and the past is just a lesson i learned .DID I EVEN FORGET THAT I WAS EVEN LIVE?!

Today is the worst day need to study for the worst math then today lit was too easy that i am losing confidence ahaha scary .studying for math and and  chinese .for chinese i seriously cannot be bothered to memorise the paragraph so hard so many good news tmr last day bad new it is math and i have absoulutly no confidence at all i am losing faith ,my faith is shaking help me .Today physic paper was a totally physco IDK spelling .SO hard especially the fact that t is math is hates so damn terrrible worst still today was damn funny when we saw spring lip like damn blue like kanna dye then peixuan say it is posses and clara say it is poison ahahah .Today ran into regina last time in msn she ask me friday got training i say don have then yesterday shooters recieve msg from mr tan that got training hen i went to tell her just in case then she say i cheat her feeling haha .i am bad i must accept that ahaha.I went to wash my hair AGAIN as just now the conditioner never wash off properly so sad and nooby OMG 10.09 le shit tmr got math paper i should turn in like 10 min more should turn in le sad but need to tmr got training must 加油 to go competition haha AMANDA JIA YOU .LOL downloading math worksheet so last min work sia but better than never study i got go revise the june math worksheet and the simple equalities worksheet so damn 临时抱否脚 i am so going to sleep now 

I cannot slack try to tell my self this but i don see the point the point any more i can't help slacking due to the stress of CT 4 so damn stress and today i realised a lot in my class got selected for phobait IDK spelling k .Yesterday geog paper EVAPORATION spell wrongly and PRECIPITATION so sad i count i minimium can get 32 so i wanna get higher or 32 i got damn BIG hope sia .I depreately need to get a life and study harder since it is CT4  2 more days than it will all be over and worst tmr got litreture and science-physic the 2 pathertic subject together i got phobia against tmr i  damn scared for tmr especially science physics is equally as bad as math damn it and today braman tore the curtain